Just Another Dream

I had a dream again last night
And it's funny because I usually don't remember them after I wake up
But strangely, I can remember this vividly
It's still fresh in my mind, I don't even have to rush to the computer to write it down
Shows just how much it means to me
I dreamt that I was at a movie premier with my family
It didn't even occur to me what we were watching
And then the guys of 2PM arrived and sat in the row behind us, all of them but one
So I began wondering where is he, why isn't he coming?
And suddenly there he was, he arrived later than the others
And he was moving his way in to his seat near the end
The other members were greeting him and cheering him on
He sat down and I held my breath, he was sitting right behind me
I started getting anxious and fidgety and didn't know what to do
So I pulled out my handphone, except it looked like a friggin' compact notebook
And I turned to my elder brother who was beside me
I asked him how do I work this thing, and he said to deal with it myself
I started fiddling with it and pressing all the buttons
And at that moment, I felt as though he was peering from behind me
I slowly turned sideways to cast a glance at the back of me
And there he was, smiling his sheepish grin and it was all so perfect
Unfortunately, my dream decided to end itself there
Come to think of it, the dream didn't make much sense
What was I doing at a movie premier with 2PM and aren't they supposed to sit in front of me, being VIP guests and all?
And what the heck was my handphone supposed to be anyway?
But that's how the mind works, and I don't really mind
Sometimes dreams reflect what we want in reality
And yes, I want Jaebum back in 2PM, joking and having fun as if none of this had happened in the first place


I cried a river last night, reading fics about them, and the tears just wont stop flowing. I don't remember crying this much, the pile of tissues, it's as if someone had passed away. It hurts so much, so damn much.
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